Focusing on the Inside

As humans, we spend so much time looking at the outside and I wonder, how much time do we really spend on the inside?  Inside of ourselves...finding ourselves...knowing ourselves.

I say a lot that I know who I am, but DO I really?

As any 15, 20, 25, 30 year old and they'll all tell you the same thing.  "I know exactly who I am."

But do they?

I wonder if we even can.  I mean, I know my core self.  I know what I stand for and what I believe in.  I know what I love and what irritates me and what I won't stand for.

But as I grow and change and mature, will that all grow and change and mature with me?  I think it will.  I think if I always stay a work in progress, I will never really know me.

And I honestly hope to always stay a work in progress.

I've been making the most of my meditation room and I'm certainly growing in the aspect of introspection and opening my mind and heart.  I'm really loving how it makes me feel (even though I do get frustrated because unfortunately I have a goal with all of this and the Aries in me wants instant gratification).

Just sitting...clearing my mind...letting my thoughts go...none of that is easy for me, but it feels so good I think it's what I needed.  I'm becomming fascinated with the whole thing.

I'm even considering getting certified as a meditation instructor.  I don't know that I would ever really teach it, but I do think I would study harder and work consistently and really put my all into it if I were going for a certification.  Also, the thought of having more than just the books I choose on Amazon to guide me would be nice...and proably helpful!

I don't know...something I'm considering.

What do you think? Is it worth the certification if I"m not going to use it to make a living?  Is it worth trying to make a living doing it if it is something I love?

Am I analyzing too much?

I think I need to meditate on this!

Much Love,
Mercedes