I have a dream to have a career that revolves around peace and softness. Something where I have plenty of time to meditate and contemplate life and love.
I want to write. I would love to have a job that brings in steady cash but at the same time allows me the freedom to write whatever I want to write.
If money were no object, I know just what I would do. But...*sigh*...it is an object. Quite a bit one.
They say people who start their own businesses are fearless and must be able to take chances. I take chances all the time and nothing much scares me. Except...not having money. I am terrified of losing everything or not being able to pay my bills. Terrified of it. I have to have steady money coming in. Anything else, I'll risk it all. Not having money...I just can't.
I think I believe in myself, but I also know myself. I know that I've started LOTS of projects and once I got bored with them, I'm on to other things. I'm unwilling to risk my income if I were to even potentially get bored and abandon my new found peaceful job. What if I missed the corporate world someday? What if I couldn't think of anything to write? What if...???
Has anyone out there ever taken a chance on something they love to do? Given up everything you really know to start a whole new career without knowing if you could even make any money at it? Were you scared to death? Did it work out?
What advice do you have for me? What would you do? Start saving now for a downpayment on the startup loan and take a huge risk? Or...keep doing what I do and hope for a trip to the top of the corporate ladder?
I just don't feel settled and good until I get home at night and when I do, I usually have a screaming headache because of all the stress. And the problem is...I'm really good at what I do. Really good at it and it's beginning to pay off well financially.
Ugh!
Much Love,
Mercedes
2 comments:
Hi Mercedes,
I really admire your personality, I wish I had a big sister like you, I am a teenager so that's why I said that haha. Anywho why don't you start writing on the side as well as keeping your job? That way you can test it out? Also a lot of enterprenaurs fail so unless you have an idea first that you think you can't live without accomplishing or you are very certain would be successful then I don't think you should quit. You can still work on your idea while doing the job too unless its in a contract or something. Bye :)
Hi Mercedes,
Brenda here from Rori's blog. One of the Sirens, Sweetpea, who doesn't post anymore, started her own business on nothing but GUTS! It is Happy Sexy Life, http://happysexylife.com/. Maybe you could compare notes with her!
I miss you on the blog!
Love, Brenda
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